Trying to Hope

The LP seemed to work wonders for Nathan.  It didn't take very long to see that it had worked to relieve some of the pressures inside his head.  His eyes were no longer sunsetting and his head looked a lot less bulgy.  He was cranky for a while afterward, but it looked like it was going to work.  At least we were trying to hope it would.

The fact was, we felt very much that we were running really low on hope.  Nathan had been in the hospital at least one day of every month since he had been born.  And we had been battling this &$^%@! hydrocephalus for over 7 months.  And every time we thought we could turn the corner on it, it would reach out its long arms and yank us back. 

Each time we tried something new, we really, really, really wanted to believe it was the one that was going to work.  We tried so hard to not doubt and to not be skeptical.  But instead, to have hope and have faith and believe that at some point we would come to the end of this trial and that Nathan would have the opportunity to live a healthy life out of the hospital .